I haven't even been able to blog about this because I have been in denial, but yes, my first child is actually leaving the nest in 10 days. No one ever told me that it would be this hard, or maybe I am just wired all wrong and it is especially painful and emotional for me. Whatever it is....this is really tough on me. I find myself bursting into tears at very random times. Even in the grocery store when I pass by the "Chalulah sauce" or some other favorite food of Alex's. Speaking of food...I need to add "always open the carton to check the eggs" to my list of things to tell him.....
I know he will be back before his mission, but I just don't think things will ever really be the same again.
We have been to several really great meetings lately revolving around the graduating seniors. Duty to God Recognition Night, Seminary Graduation, and Senior Recognition Night. I was a crier during all 3 of them. The moms were supposed to get up at Sr. Night and talk a little bit about their child. I couldn't even do it, I had to pass the buck to Lane whose tear ducts do not happen to be connected to his heart like mine.
It is not only Alex that I am going to miss, but all of his friends. I love them all so much and they are such great kids to have in our home. I always wanted our house to be the "hang out house" and even though it is smaller than most of his friends' houses, they somehow end up here most of the time and I totally love it. I know that Alex is going to have a blast at BYU Idaho and I am so excited for him. It just came alot sooner than I expected.
So for all of you who want to ring your 3 year old's neck for various reasons throughout the day...please believe me when I say, they will be leaving home before you know what hit you and you will want all of those days back!
One of my very favorite songs is called "Two Little Shoes".
The chorus says..."and each night I kneel. My heart sings a prayer. Thanks dear God for one little boy, and two little shoes on the stair...."
I will get through it. This is just a tough year for me: Oldest leaving home. Youngest going to school. Turning 40!
Pray for me :)
4 comments:
Aww! Holy Tearjerker Tara! I know I will be an emotional basketcase when this day has come! I am sorry this has been tough. At least you can look forward to joyous reunions and you'll get to see his friends again. Thinking of you!
~ Christine
tara, i feel like i haven't really talked to you lately other than the quick chat. i know it will hard for you but just be grateful that you were able to raise him right and that he such a great kid. he is going to have so much fun at school. let's just hope he doesn't fall in love with some girl right away! tell him he needs to stay focused!!! which may be hard for him. what a cute family you have! and as far as 40? hey it's the new 30 so no biggy! you look and feel great and no one would every know! i understand though because now all of the sudden we are like total middle aged "mothers". scarey! i love you!
Tara, you made me cry! I am already dreading the day my kids leave home. My oldest is seven! You're right, the time goes by so fast. I know I'll turn around and they'll be grown-ups. Good luck. You have such a cute family!
I can't believe that he is off to college..I am so sorry that I have not talked to you for a while. I miss you. call me so we can talk.Your kids are so cute and growing up so fast. The girls and I want to some see you soon! I love you.
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